Samad Shikhi - The Naked World

The World is naked,

We just dressed up and decorated it.

The rain did not know how to stop the day after days. Some people were so happy because of raining, but the rain interferes with others’ work and did not welcome well by them. Some of them were so confused and did not even think about the rain. One of them was Salimly family. They are waiting for the new person to join their family, all of them are feeling that they ready to give birth like a mother from the excitement at the same time. Excitement for the first child and the first grandchild changed to the full of happiness of the whole family after doctor’s successful birth surgery. After the doctor is informing that everything is okay, the child is healthy and there is no need to worry, all the doubts have gone and the family was so happy. They named Yaseed to the child. Most of them wondered about the difference and weirdness of this name but in the end, everyone liked this name. They thought that he will be a different person like his name.

After years, these differences started to emerge. There were not any weirdness of the first years of Yaseed, but after years Yaseed started to question these weirdnesses in his head. He didn’t unaware of this strangeness yet. How it could happen?! He was born this way and no one told him our world is not naked. Maybe what Yaseed see with his eyes is the truth of our world. It is nudity and we wear nothing.

The first time he realized these differences is when he was seven years old. He asked his mom “why I can touch and wear the clothes but I cannot see them”.Of course, his mother did not understand anything and she thinks that he is a child and it is normal to imagine about something like this in his little world. When his mother asks what kind of clothes you want to wear, he said:

What is the main role of the clothes?

And his mother replied back that the clothes are for covering our bodies and protecting us from the cold weather. Yaseed deeply thought about the answer “covering our bodies?”

What do you mean it is covering our bodies?
If we didn't wear anything, we seemed like a naked and everybody could see our bodies. We are wearing clothes to hide our bodies.
But I can see all of them. I can see naked people all the time.
(his mother laughs) How can you see? We can see only our arms, feet and head as a naked.
No, I can see all the bodies of everyone.
How? Can you see my body?
Yes
So, do you mean that there are no clothes over me?
Yes

His mother did not understand what his son is talking about. How he can see every part of her body. Maybe he saw her as a naked and he still imagines her as a naked?!

Do you see only me like that or it is also belonging to anyone?
Everyone. My father, you…
What color of clothes I wear now?
I cannot see the clothes after all.

His mother still thinks that her child is playing a game with her but it is also pissed her off.

When he sees pictures on the album, Yaseed finally analyzed the different situation of himself. He saw different clothes over everybody on the photos and this made him very confused. How is it possible that I cannot see these things on people in real life! Neither his father nor his mother did not care this a lot because they thought that Yaseed is fooling with them.

His relations between his classmates was not good at all. The situation he is in now makes him stay away from everyone. His introvert personality and did not communicate with classmates attracted attention to his teachers at the school. His mother analyzed the situation when he walks with her and did not connect with anyone and even did not look at the people. She understood that all the questions he gave to her were not meaningless. After school, when they go to the home she asked:
Your teachers reported to me that you do not want to play with your friends, you always sit alone. Why do not you want to play with them? Did they do something bad to you?
No, they did nothing to me.
Then why are you running from them? Speak with them, play a game.

Yaseed tried to say something but then he thought that when he says, her mother will not listen to him and she will get angry again. In the evening, his father came to his room and sat down in front of him:

Yaseed, what are you doing?
I am doing my homework.
(His father takes his book and checked mathematics questions) Do you need my help?
No, I can handle it.
I want to talk with you.

Yaseed turned his face to him.

Did they behave you badly at school?

Yaseed understood the question directly.

No, no one behaves me badly.
If you want, we can change the school. Do you want to go another school?
I do not want.
Will you tell your father what is really happening?

Yaseed took a photo from the cupboard and showed a photo of three of them to him.

Look.
I saw it. So?
What do you see? – Yaseed asked.
I see you, your mother and me.
But I see the clothes in this picture however, I cannot see the clothes in real life.
How?
There are clothes over your bodies in this picture...
So? Everybody must wear clothes.
(Yaseed felt nervous and started to cry) But I cannot see clothes over anybody.
Do you see any clothes over me?
No.
How it can be possible? Are you serious?
YES

His father did not understand anything. They decided to take him to the psychologist. After school, his mother takes him to the psychologist. The psychologist takes him to her personal room and tells his mother to sit in the waiter room.

The psychologist talked with his father before, his father has explained the situation to her. The psychologist welcomed the situation weirdly, she thought about the possibilities of this accident and she investigated a lot. There is nothing happened like this before in the world. Some people tried to create this before but no one achieved this. She was very curious to do a conversation with Yaseed. Maybe this one will take place in science with her research and her sign.

She is following every detail of the conversation, listening to every word he said, she is asking different questions just to know what he said is the truth or the lies. She is asking what he can see from every part of her body, after the right answers, she took notes and she imagines herself as to be like him.

What do you feel when you see somebody?
What kind of feelings are?
When did you realize that you are different?
Do you like this situation?
Are you shying? – these kinds of questions she asks him for her investigation. She talked with his parents and lowed the prices just to meet him often.

The psychologist gets agreed with his parents that doing more research on him but they come to terms that the psychologist will not share anything about Yaseed in public.She is trying to know more about him often, she is learning his opinions and approaches in his different life cycles.

After years, Yaseed has become a more introvert person, even he did not want to look at his friends and his parents. His friends who learned about his disease, they laugh, sometimes they are curiously asking questions about the reality of this disease, how he can live like that, how does he feel. They want to be like him. Sometimes they feel jealous and they are asking about how he can see the girls, is it true that he can see the girls as a naked. Yaseed tried to live his disease with the good side but he could not do it. Sometimes he feels disgusted with himself. When he looks at the girls and teacher at the school, children came and started to kidding him and this makes him draw a line from everyone. All he wants is to graduate from school and get away from anyone at school. But the one thing he cannot run and that was his eyes. He always runs from everyone because of his eyes.

One time, he liked a girl at school and he started to look at her for a long time but everyone started to laugh to him and that girl ashamed a lot and she slapped him for this. Even at home when his mother calls him, he turns his face and every time he tries to not look at her.

After graduation from school, he did not want to apply for university but he applied it because of the high wishes of his mother. He is in touch with his psychologist, he always talks with her, she gives advice to him. Even she has a main role to him for applying to the university.

What will I do at university? – I will face to face with the same situation.
Do not tell anyone about this. Act like a normal. I understand, you feel strange but do not talk about this to anyone.

Yaseed tried to act normal like what she said to him. Nobody knows him at university and that makes him feel a bit comfortable but still the feelings he lives in drive him crazy. When he talks with someone, he always puts his head down and everybody started to think about him differently.

The first course was too good at the beginning for him but at the end of the course everything started to look like his school life.This time it wasn’t about his eyes, it was about his shyness. They are kidding with him and saying that you are shying to look at the girls and they give advice to him for overcoming from this issue.

In the second course, he falls in love with one girl called Niri. She was the only one who closes to him. He is talking about Niri to his psychologist and explaining how he feels different with some for the first time. – What do you feel about her when you saw her?

Like wrapping with love. She makes me feel strange every time.

After a while, his feelings turned to true love for both of them. But onetime Niri said to him that he needs to change his personality because it was not welcoming very well from the other people. Yaseed started to think that it is time to tell Niri about the truth.

I want to tell you the truth about myself. You will understand why I am like this and why I am running from people.
Tell me.
My eyes are different. Even this disease is unknown.
How? Is it about your eyes?
I see people differently. I mean I can see people fully naked in my eyes.
Explain a bit more. What do you mean ‘naked’? Like a feeling? You are seeing people what they are and this is why you are running from them?
Not exactly, I just see people totally naked. For example, I see you naked and I cannot see any clothes over you.

After this answer, Niri disapointed a bit and she mentioned that his words are disgusting.

I know it seems incredible but trust me it is. This is why I do not want to see people. This makes me shy and terrify.
Are you serious?
Yes. People in the school knew about me and they laughed and mocked me every time. I hide this secret in university. You are the first one I am telling in this university.

Niri did not want to accept what Yaseed said. After lectures, Yaseed took her to his psychologist. Three of them started to talk about it. The psychologist showed the research and all the documents about him in years to Niri. Niri looked at her lover and tried to understand the possibilities of this disease. Seeing the world as a naked? How it can be possible?

After accepting the truth, Yaseed had trouble with Niri’s jealousy. Every time when he looked at the girls, Niri is starting to discuss with him and sometimes this conversation takes a while. Sometimes Yaseed feels so tired and bored but then he realizes that Niri is the only one in his world and he is trying to make peace with her again. At the same time, Niri understands the situation slowly and she tries to hide her jealous feelings and she gives her love back to him.

***

Yaseed and Niri organized a birthday party for him, but Niri informed Yaseed that she changed the plan and she will make a party in her house:

What do you mean at my home? What your parents will say? Will they be at home?
No worries, we will be alone at my house. I will arrange everything, you just need to come.

After 2 p.m, Niri made everything complete for the party, she is waiting for Yaseed to come. Her parents went to another city and they will be alone at home.

The door is knocking. Niri is opening the door and inviting him to the inside. She kissed him and said “ Happy Birthday” and showed him her house. Yaseed is feeling happy after when he saw the gifts. He hugged her and said that this is the best birthday party he ever has.

They have dinner together and talking with each other. Yaseed reminds the school time when his first crush slapped him just because he looked at him for a long time. But Niri did not get angry, even she likes it when he looks at him for a long time. Sometimes they do not talk and they are just looking at each other. After dinner, Niri showed him the birthday cake and they blew it together and sit on the chair. Niri told him that do not move on and wait for me a bit. After some minutes, she came to the room and said with a happy face:
Find what I am wearing now.
Are you kidding me? How will I know what you wear?
Just imagine.
A skirt?
No.
I don’t know. You know that I do not like to talk about this. – His smile is gone.

Niri closes to him and kissed him – This time you are seeing the truth – She said

Yaseed touched her and felt her body.

You...
The night is for US

They went to her bed and they stayed there for hours. This was the first time when Yaseed felt love and passion at the same time. Sometimes he feels like it is a dream but then he realizes that it is not.

They are talking to each other with lying on her bed. Both of them get tired a lot.

What do you feel when you look at the other people?
What do you mean?
I mean you can see all the women as naked, probably you have different feelings when you look at them.
Not only women, but also men. I am joking, I do not know, I do not feel anything. It is not depending on me. I just see people like that.
Don’t get me wrong, what if when you look at your parents or relatives?
I was born this way. I see people the same from my childhood, they get used to already. I am being an introvert person just because of the pressure and aggression I feel from the people. It is not about passion. It is about my shyness, everyone is running from me because of who I am. I actually do not run, people run from me, they do not want me to see them.
But you said they get used to you...
This is why they are running. They are afraid of me because I see the real face of them. It is easy to hide your body, we invented clothes, and we are doing this. But we cannot hide some other nudity things from the people.
I am feeling in love with the weirdest guy ever in the world but I am happy with that. I see your inside. I know your heart.

***

After graduation from the university, Yaseed and Niri get married. Everyone wondered about how Yaseed married with someone because he is an ashamed person. They are judging Niri for being close to him. Why did you date with Yaseed? “You are funny as much as him, you are a fool” and other words her friend is telling Niri all the time. Niri did not care what they say and she showed how she is happy with Yaseed and that is all matters.

After two years of their marriage, Niri gets pregnant. Everyone thinks about the one question: “The child will see like Yaseed or he/she will be normal?”. After 9 months of Niri’s pregnancy, they took Niri to the hospital. Yaseed’s father sees the excitement of his son and approaches him:

We waited for you like this in twenty seven-years ago. – he said.

Yaseed smiled and gave all his attention to the surgery room. The doctor left the room and started to smile at Yaseed.

What happened? Am I a father now?
Yes, congratulations. You have a healthy son now!
What about Niri? Is she okay?
Yes, both of them are pretty good. You will see them soon.

Everyone wonders about just one question. With what eyes he came to our world. The doctor forgot about to say it.

When we are coming to this world, we are crying. Tell me who did not cry? Did you ever think that WHY? We cried for the pain or we just disappointed after we saw the world? We think we can hide our body with clothes at the same time with our shame, but we did not know that our shame is completely nude in this naked world. We do not have clothes or anything to hide them.